To Tuesday

[Ami]

Dear Tuesday,

I watched your life fade today but you will never fade from my heart-ever. I know you are in a wonderful place now, free of pain and suffering and cruelty and fear. You deserve that so much.

I want you to know how deeply I love you. You have been with me through so much. In the past 10 years I have made so many mistakes, but you never ever cared about that, you were there for my no matter how stupid I was. You were alway just content to be close to me.

You have been my protector for 10 years. You would have given your life at any moment for me...You are truly my best friend.

Thank you for your unconditional love.

Thank you for putting up with all the drama of my life

Thank you for always greeting me at the door with your happy barks and kisses and for being SOO excited to see me every single time, even if I was only gone for 10 minutes.

Thank you for your soft neck that has soaked up so many of my tears and for your warm tounge that has kissed those tears away and always made me feel so much better.

Thank you for being you. Thank you for finding me. You have impacted my life so greatly. You have made me a better person.

My heart hurts so badly for you right now. I am so sorry if I ever did anything to hurt you in any way. Im so sorry I was not perfect. I am so sorry for everything. I love you so much. I miss you so much. Now you are at the Rainbow Bridge, looking down on me. Please take care of Dingo and Chloe.

Goodbye Tuesday. I love you my sweet boy

Mom


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[Gunners Mom]

Oh Ami,

I'm sitting at work with tears running down my face after reading that, and I feel so very sorry for you!

What a beautiful letter to write to Tuesday. I'm sure he's looking down at you, pain free, and saying thank you for such a wonderful life Mom! I don't think he could have possibly had a better Mom than you. You gave him 10 of the greatest, loving years that he could have ever had.

Thank you for sharing your letter to him with us. My thoughts and prayers will be with you.

Gunner's Mom (Janet)

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[jaykimsue]

I am also sitting here with tears running down my face, ;8

Such lovely words to Tuesday,


You had a very special bond with Tuesday that will always be a part of you, doesnt matter where you go in life ,or what you do, that bond will stay strong ..always

Susan and Jonah :)

[AttiesMom]

Tears here, too, and I'm not usually a crier. That was beautiful, Ami. Again, I am so sorry for your loss.

[Kristen]

Oh Ami, I am so sorry that you lost your boy today. The pain is terrible, I know. Ten years is a long time to have a friend, and then loose him. I am thinking of you and hoping that you will be able to take comfort in the love you had for Tuesday. But most of all, take comfort in the knowledge that he was your loyal, loving companion, and he was so happy to have you as his mom.
The connection we have with some of our pets is hard to explain, and I am sure the void you have now that he is gone is awful. But I promise, as time goes by, the hurt will fade, and all the happy memories you have of Tuesday will fill your heart. Lily and Nelson will gently help you to feel better too.

I am so touched by your letter to your boy, as I know exactly how you feel. I am so sorry...
:( :( ;8

[eastwooddanes]

So sorry for your loss, what a beautiful tribute. Tuesday will live forever in your heart and in your memories. Someday you will meet again. How lucky you both were to have each other for such a long time.


Kim E.

[alicat613]

Ami, thank you for sharing this. It was beautiful to read the love between you and Tuesday.

[Ami]

I want to write and write and write about our stories and good-times and bad-times and everything. I want to tell him SOOO much more! I want to look at pictures with him again and tell him stories...there are SOOO many stories! I want my Tuesday here with his big soft eyes.

I wish I would have spent a night in his room with him. I wish I could now. I wish I could have been better. I love him. Im not ready for him to be gone. It was so quick

Ami, Lily and Nelson

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[Tracytj]

Ami, I am so sorry to hear about Tuesday. Your letter made me cry. I read it out loud to my son and could barely finish.

Hugs and support to you. We're all thinking about you at my house this night...

Tracy (and Gregory, my son)

[mp]

The same thing happened with my first Dane. Just a little over two weeks between diagnosis and departure. Please write down all the things you want to tell Tuesday and want to remember about Tuesday, for although you don't think so now, these memories fade a little year by year. I spent the last week with my boy's head on my lap and writing and writing and writing and talking to him about everything we had shared over the years. The writing really helped in saying goodbye. And even though Tuesday is gone, writing down all those recollections will keep them forever. mp

[Pauline301]

So sorry for your loss of Tuesday. I too 'am crying while reading your lovely tribute. He had a wonderful life with you. Know in your heart that he is at peace now and someday you will all meet up again at the Bridge.

Linda, Dave, Jesse, and Kitties, Cassie, Pekoe and Emma

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[Carolyn]

I am so sorry Ami. My deepest condolences.
Carolyn
Divine Acres Great Danes

[danelvr]

oh ami, it was a beautiful letter to him. i dont think i could be crying any harder. its raining where i am, i think mother nature is crying for you and tuesday too. good bye tuesday

[Karbon13]

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[Ami]

Today is officialy the worst day of my life. I am not doing well. I wrote that letter to Tuesday in haste. I want to write a new one because I left out so much.

I want Tuesday to have my letter with him when he is creamated(SP). I have until tomorrow...

Ami, Lily and Nelson

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[Gloria]

Ami,

So sorry about your loss. I am sitting here crying for you along with everybody else.

Please don't be hard on yourself! Tuesday was greatly loved by you and you didn't do anything wrong.

So sorry again.

[jlr07]

Ami ~

Thank you for sharing that beautful letter to Tuesday with us! I think that's so wonderfully spoken to Tuesday, as we all hope they realized how much we loved and cared about them, and they have no idea how deeply missed they will be. I have tears just streaming down my face right now. Our thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time. Here is to Tuesday running free...

[Zoeys Mom]

Ami, I'm sitting at work, just bawling. I am soo soo sorry.

[anne]

Oh Ami, I know how devastated you are right now. I have been crying while reading all this, I cried on the phone with you last night, I cried when Gary came home and I told him of your loss, it's just terrible and if I'M unable to stop the tears- my God- I really feel for you and how hard the emotional roller-coaster is right now.

Just know that almost all of us have had that one "soul dog" that has truly been our best friend, better than any human could be. He is still with you, only you aren't able to cry into his neck now. You will get stronger. Your babies Lily and Nelson will learn to comfort you in time, they are just so young it's hard for them to know what to do and what mommy needs.

Take heart, hon. This is the worst time~ it will get better gradually. You have all of us, and that's got to count for something :*

Blessed be,

[weim_mom]

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Tuesday was soooo loved. My heart is breaking for you Ami.

Michelle

[Oni]

Dear Ami, Tuesday's spirit will always survive in your heart, for now he is just a thought away.
Our tears sometimes seem like such an inconsequential offering in exchange for their unlimited love. Surely each tear we shed washes a degree of our soul away.

[lisacp75]

Ami - I'm so sorry for your loss. I am sure that Tuesday could not possibly have chosen a life any better than the one you made with him - there is so much love and joy evident in your feelings towards him, and I'm sure he felt the same way.

[Ginger1]

Ami, I'm so very sorry.....thank you for sharing your letter, it was beautiful. You are in my thoughts, Ginger

[Katie_T]

We send you all our love and condolences,
Katie, Bryan, and Avery

[lovelygia]

Oh Ami, my heart just sank. I am so sorry and feeling your pain and tears.
He is now free of pain and playing with your babies who passed before him.
Please know that I am thinking of you today with tears falling.
;8 ;8 ;8
Katie in AZ

[andipanda]

I am so sorry for your loss. andi

[gmac]

I have shed a thousand tears since Monday night over my darling little Sophie, and now I shed some more for your boy. I am so sorry Ami. Nothing has made me feel any better at all. I would give anything to have one more little kiss from Sophie before I said goodbye.

[TxDane_N_Nd]

What a wonderful letter. I sit here like so many others, with tears rolling down my face. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that time will heal the wound that as been left on your heart. Thank you for sharing the wonderful love you have for your boy. Will be sending lots of prays your way. Again, So sorry for your loss.;8 ;8 ;8 ;8 ;8 ;8 ;8 ;8

[astridj]

Oh Ami, I'm afraid we're never ever ready loose our furbabies. I am so sorry for you. But, girl, Tuesday would never want you to grieve too much over him... that would not make him happy. Be thankful for the time you've had together and know that he'll continue watching over you from whereever he is right now.
Sad for you in CNY

[LDBrennan]

So sorry for your loss, Ami.
Linda & Olivia

[Ami]

Thank you everyone for all your support. I am so happy to have all of you to understand these things. It is a great support group! I am doing OK today. I have waves of saddness that come and go all the time. This morning I made 3 dishes of dog food and just bawled as I poured one back in the bag. I cannot listen to the radio because every song makes me cry. It made me cry that my star-gazer-lilies bloomed for the first time today...almost as if they knew what has happened (they are my favorite). All my neighbors have been stopping by because they saw Tuesday being carried to my car yesterday. So each time I tell them what happened, I bawl my eyes out again.

My eyes are so puffy and red! I look like hell! But who cares.

I had a dream last night about the Rainbow Bridge. I dont remember much of it, but I know Tuesday was running and running and running with Chloe and Dingo and a whole herd of other Great Danes. They were all very happy. What I remember most was how strange little Dingo looked running with all those Great Danes! Maybe the other Danes were all of your lost babies, running with Tuesday and welcoming him. :)

Ami, Lily and Nelson

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[lovelygia]

What a beautiful dream Ami. That is exactly how I would imagine it at the Rainbow Bridge. So many things to read into with that. All comforting I hope.
Take care.
Katie in AZ

[Angie]

;8 Tears streaming here :( Ami I am so sorry for your loss. Your bond with Tuesday will ALWAYS be in your heart. Your letter was beautiful, you are a loving mom. Hugs,Angie

[Kramers mom]

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...Ruth

[Jada Lee]

I am so very sorry, that letter is beautiful, and of course I am sitting here crying. My heart goes out to you.

[cals mom]

My heart goes out to you. I lost my Jack this past March after 13 years. I still find myself tearing up when I see certain things that remind me of him. We had him before we had our children and of all the changes in our lives during that 13 years he was the one thing that remained the same. He was not a dane, but a Rottweiler. During those years we had another Rottweiler and 2 Danes. I will never get another because it would never be up to his standards, he was not a dog, he was my best friend. Our latest Dane was on 9 months old when he passed, she will remain any "only child". You are in my prayers.

[Ami]

Well, I just wanted to explain how Tuesday died. I need to do this.

I got home on Tuesday night at about 10pm and Tuesday seemed pretty normal, but he seemed to be having some problems with the hardwood and tile floors, almost like they were slippery. I didnt know what to think of it, but planned on calling the Vet the next day after work. I went to bed and woke up at 8am to go to work. I walked into the livingroom and thought Tuesday was dead because he was laying on the floor and couldnt even lift his head. His breathing was shallow and he didnt seem to want me to touch him.

I didnt know what to do. I called my boss to tell him about what has happened, but only got a voicemail. I left a message and went to work. I was sent home immediatly and then started to try to get someone here to help me with Tuesday. I KNEW it was his time to pass on...unlike the other times when I wasnt sure, this time I knew it. It was like Tuesday was somehow telling me that he had to go.

I had no luck finding a Vet that would come to my house (mobile Vets), they were all booked. My Vets office had a doctor out sick and had a solid schedule and couldnt possibly come to get Tuesday. I had to wait for hours with Tuesday while I waited for someone to call me back, while he was crying and whimpering and not strong enough to move.

At 2:30pm my neighbor got home from work and I asked him to please help me get Tuesday in my car in order to take him to the Vet. He agreed quickly and was able to carry Tuesday to my car. I had to hold Tuesdays head up while he was being carried because he didnt even have the strength to do so.

I drove Tuesday to my Vet and they explained how the euthanasia would happen. They asked if I wanted to be in the room and I said, yes, of course. Before the whole shot was given, Tuesday was collapsing in my arms. I was a complete mess, blubbering and sobbing the whole time. Our Vet was also cying. She is a wonderful person and Doctor. I kissed Tuesday a million times and said goodbye to him. I held him tight and talked to him. I told him about the Rainbow Bridge and that I would be there for him soon. The whole experience was horrible...but yet, I am glad I was there with him. I know he wanted me there. He would lick my hand while I was talking to him, up until the last moment. He died with his tounge out because he was licking my hand when his life ended. His head was in my lap and I was doubled up with my head burrowed in his neck. Our Vet checked his heart beat and confirmed him dead at 3:11pm.

I know I made the right decision. Tuesday died in peace with me holding and loving him and him loving me. I know that the whole Tuesday was not there that day. A sickness had taken part of him away. His soul was what was left, along with a thread of the physical world...Tuesday fought to stay alive for me. He is such a good boy. When he left this world, he felt love, I know he knew I did a loving thing by allowing him not to suffer any more. I know he is thankful for that.

Tuesday was a beautiful dog and a loving companion, my very best friend, and he always will be. I miss him so much and cannot wait to see him again!

I am glad to get this out, thank you.

Ami, Lily and Nelson

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[danelvr]

oh ami,
im so sorry you had to do that. i know exactly how hard that is. im crying for tuesday and you, and also for kash. it reminds me of kashs death so much.

i am sending you healing thoughts

[Ami]

Thanks Sarah,

I will call you soon, have you seen my babies pics?

Ami, Lily and Nelson

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[Ellen]

Thank you for sharing your story. ;8 ;8 ;8 Peace.

[jlr07]

Ami ~

Thanks so much for sharing your story. Us always speaking out assists us with the grieiving process. I wanted to tell you as I only know you from your communication on DOL, you have been in my thoughts as I can't imagine what you are going through. I have only had Morgan for a little over a year, however, if anything ever happened to her I don't know what I would do with myself. She has been through so much with me the past year, and there for so much comfort in my tears, when my now fiancee', he and I broke up for several months and I felt so alone. It seems from your letter to Tuesday, Tuesday was there for you through so many difficult times. Good luck in the continued healing process and wishing well to your other babies.

[alp]

Ami, I am so sorry for your loss. Tuesday will always remain in my thoughts. Peace be with you.

[Cindycc43]

I am so sorry Ami. Bye Tuesday ;8

Cindy, Bo, Bear, Baby & Stinky;8

[Ami]

Thank you. Lily and Nelson have been giving me comfort. Lily went on a hunger-strike for a full day after Tuesday died, but has been eating well now. I think she is looking for him sometimes. She will just walk around and look in rooms, then go to the next one and then lay down for awhile, then get up and check around the house. Nelson does not seem to be effected. I am glad to have them here with me.

Ami, Lily and Nelson

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[Ami]

It is 11:00pm and in an hour, it would have been my Tuesdays 10th Birthday (Sept 11).

It was about 6 weeks ago that he died. I still love and miss him so much, every single day. I just wanted to make this last comment on this old thread to my baby:

"To Tuesday,
I miss you, I love you. I know you are well and I feel your spirit surrounding me each and every day. Although you had to leave this physical world, I know you are still with me, in my heart and my dreams, forever.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY my sweet Tuesday. Your candle will be lit at midnight and me and Lily and Nelson will be looking at hundreds of pictures of you and celebrating your beautiful life here on earth.

I LOVE you
Mom"


Ami, Lily and Nelson
'Rest in Peace my sweet Tuesday'

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[anne]

Thinking of Tuesday today, too, Ami.

He is most definitely with you.

Blessed be,

[Ellen]

Happy Birthday sweet Tuesday. Thinking of you both today Ami. Hoping that Tuesday will send you many many of his fond memories to brighten your day.

[Kristen]

Ami,

Happy Birthday to your sweet boy. He is smiling down on you, remembering those years you guys had.

[lisacp75]

Happy Birthday to Tuesday...

This thread just brought me to tears again. I have never lost a dog yet as I am a recent owner, (Jolie is 3 yrs. old,) and I honestly don't know what I will do when the day comes. Take care, Ami, Lily and Nelson, we are all thinking of you. Tuesday was obviously a very, very special Dane.

[Ami]

Thank you all,
Yes, Lisa, Tuesday was a very very special Dane. He suffered so much as a young puppy and then was brought into my dramatic life when I rescued him. He was just simply amazing. He didnt like/trust too many other people (with good reason), but he loved me SO much. He was SO HAPPY to be close to me. He was so sensitive and so scared of new situations. When we went to the Vet, I would have to be with him throughout every minute of the visit...if I was there, he was okay. I know the back halls of my Vets office as well as the people who work there! :)

Uugghhh, I miss him so much!!! Today has been a very trying day for me. At some moments, I felt like I just lost him yesterday ;8 . I know that I gave Tuesday a great life for almost a decade. He died knowing that he was loved because I was holding him and telling him so.

I know hindsight is 20/20, but I wish I could have held myself together better, for Tuesdays sake, in those last hours. I was a blubbering mess! I felt the same way when my Chloe died, I was a screaming crazy lady, trying to give her CPR...It wouldnt work, I couldnt save her. I wish that my dying babies wouldnt have their last memories of me being so crazy and distressed... I hope they realize that my emotions are displayed out of complete and total love for them.


Ami, Lily and Nelson
'Rest in Peace my sweet Tuesday'

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